i miss the idea of him... something.
some days it's hard to not think of him for even a split second...and then i start blocking it right out again.
i did really love you, you know.
not that he would ever read that or anything.
it's funny how quickly life can change, when you feel on top of the world.
i feel like God is up there pointing and laughing at me.
i wish someone could Eternal Sunshine my ass.
maybe then i'd feel better.
i hope you are both happy when you get married in November.
and to him..i hope you are happy getting married to someone you don't even love.
because thats the best thing for your son...a broken family.
goodnight.meet me in Montawk....